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Cheese for Ponders and Games

“Tell me… Do you ever feel a strange sadness as dusk falls? They say it’s the only time when our world intersects with theirs… The only time we can feel the lingering regrets of spirits who have left our world.That is why loneliness always pervades the hour of twilight…”

– The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess

Something about that quote that just really gets me pondering. I’m not a dweller on spirituality, but I really do love the idea of spirits actually being nothing but energy. Just energy that makes everything run. And just as energy transforms from one thing to the other, it happens with us. You die, your body turns into dust and returns to the earth, and your soul goes back to free-flowing energy. Yeah, I know the logic is very Final Fantasy-like (because it inspires me, and I love it), but I loved that idea ever since I was a child. It’s jut beautiful, humble, natural, unscathed, and not pestered with ego and a commander of all.

These words remind me of that feeling after a day of being assimilated by “normal life”; when you’re completely alone with your thoughts, somehow (yet for no logical reason) with a prevailing sense of gloom, without your loved ones, without your energy ebbing and flowing according to other fields created by the vibes of others. There comes a haunting loneliness on some nights, a quiet time, where any song seems to be deeper than it really is, more atmospheric, that makes you rethink everything you’re doing.

I always wondered if this happens to others, I’m almost sure that it does, but it’s just one of those things that you see/feel on your own and just enjoy (like floaters, for some strange reason). I always thought it was strange. I kind of always ended up not wanting to sleep, listening to “Fisherman’s Horizon” from Final Fantasy VIII, then just thinking for a long time. About nothing, and with no outcome.

It especially happens sometimes when you’re with your friends (or loved ones) and you’re not doing anything at all but sitting together, and you end up talking for a long time, just looking outside somewhere and hanging out. You can’t really recreate the energy of that moment (man, am I full of it or what…), but you feel it too, don’t you?

I honestly don’t know (do I ever) why or what it is I’m trying to say, but I just felt like saying something, really. And somehow, I think you get it.

I was once told: “if you feel something, it’s almost a sure thing that the other person feels the same energy you feel”. I guess now that I think about that piece of advice (don’t ask) we just all feel the energy of a place, and we all move it, and it affects others the same way it affects you, and you it.

It’s just a fun idea thinking of others as energy. That quote really got me going.


I guess,




“To those who can hear me, I say, do not despair.
The misery that is now upon us is but the passing of greed,
the bitterness of men who fear the way of human progress.
The hate of men will pass, and dictators die,
and the power they took from the people will return to the people.
And so long as men die, liberty will never perish.
Don’t give yourselves to these unnatural men –
machine men with machine minds and machine hearts!
You are not machines, you are not cattle, you are men!
You, the people, have the power to make this life free and beautiful,
to make this life a wonderful adventure
Let us use that power!
Let us all unite!”
– Charlie Chaplin


I am incapable of posting, because these words just left me dumbfounded, really…

But, since I’m blogging, might as well, right?


I don’t think enough people understand the value of respect right now, I think it can make or break you.

I think respecting your fellow humans is the most important thing for all of us right now, and I find it sad that some people still choose to be uppity at such hard times; I believe this is the best time to show people the meaning of humanity.

Not because of dirty ape games (politics) like ISIS or wars, but because it is what people need right now. Ape games should not be the deciding factor of how we deal with each other. Why do people even find joining armies as a viable option?

Why do we even find ourselves fighting for things we don’t believe in? Why do we find ourselves in cages we never built, as if we were mammals being pulled into different places based on zoo-runners’ choices? Why do we mistrust others? Why do we not believe in our humanity?

Why do we end up being led by shepherds to our misery? Why do we deny our own freedom in fear of the tangible, rather than finding comfort in our own aura?


I believe this is the time to rebuild and reevaluate our lives and our meaning. I think this is when we should rediscover the love within us. How could we have been so blind as to miss all the signs pushing us to remember to respect each other?


I guess I am still tongue-tied, our power is in us. We are the people, we are not machines, and it seems like it is catching up to us now, yet we still do not see it. Why?

When will we understand the value of the demons and the gods? When will we stop hating and understand that we are meant to be free? Why do we not see the beauty of adventure in being ourselves? When will we understand?


We are our own heroes.

Yet, it’s like we are heartbroken, and seem to misunderstand everything to protect ourselves, just to end up feeding the image that someone else wants us to be. Desperation perhaps…

Because our fellow humans could not survive, they could not but join anything that appealed to that instinct of survival.

How do we not understand?

Then again…

I just guess and disrespectfully agree with the box… right?

I’m just a dreaming romantic, am I not?



When did man lose sight of the origins of nobility, humility, respect, and grace?


“Don’t give yourselves to these unnatural men –
machine men with machine minds and machine hearts!
You are not machines, you are not cattle, you are men!”


I guess



I know it can’t just be me out there who dreams, really. This entire generation has a big chunk of dreamers and hopeful professionals, and it’s absolutely refreshing after dealing with many who only speak negative things (not real, just negative).

I think our generation is going to be the most beneficial in a while, I really, honestly do. We grew up with the technology and are ushering in the Information age, yet there are many who still appreciate the spirituality and humanity in us, regardless of religion and beliefs; I think we believe more in humanity now than ever, and I think that people are wonderful things, and that our differences make us fit and help the world in one way or another. It’s impossible to have perfection, and the truth is, it is boring, and it will never be a goal. Change is constant, and a perfect balance is impossible; with every person changed, is a negative or positive being birthed as a reaction, and both sides serve the world in its constant growth.

How would we understand the pros if we did not experience the cons. Curiosity, trial, and error are the roots of all development, and there are always things that we do not know, that a negative side would show us. While I do believe sometimes these negatives are shown in order to push people to the other side on purpose (to create a controlled reaction), it all just goes to show how similar we are.

Nobody (with maybe a few exceptions, which could usually explained in one way or another) likes violence, violence is a bi-product of our primal instinct to fight for survival.

This really does explain why I am quite against parts of religious dogma, personally; I believe some sides of religion are humanly modified to create certain reactions, to force certain actions, and thus lead a mass to do and agree with a negative action. This is usually done with some cheap justification that appeals to the primal instinct of survival. That being said, there are always those who really make you see the good side of religion and how it was originally made to be a positive effect; sadly, not everyone is taught to consider the human logic behind ideas, but rather to follow; because it’s easier that way. A huge scale group loses its roots due to its need of fast expansion and its difficulty in control. i.e. The need to produce people who will carry on ideas overcomes the golden rule of consideration and respect.

But that aside, I think there is always hope in people, and I [surely, many people out there, too] think the world can be a positive place to be. There is just always a cycle of something bad happens causing for a good reaction, or a positive thing that gets pushed and abused until it becomes bad, such that a positive reaction is needed.

Sure it will be hard to change the world, but I believe that we are all born “good” (primal sure, but not evil; not knowingly hurting others in spite of another option that allows for a compensation, unless compensation means letting go of a huge part of oneself), and there are always things that push people to become “bad”, and those things in the long run (even if introduced later in a person’s life) make people forget who they once were. But we do need the “bad” to balance out the “good” and appreciate it. There is no “good” and “bad”, no “right” and “wrong”, but different perspectives trying to serve themselves to survive.

There are no obstacles between us and “success” but ourselves; there is no concrete reason to prevent changing a majority of people, unless people were implanted with the negativity for a long time, such that it becomes a second habit, and thus a comfortable place that prevents people from moving to other mental places and states.


I just don’t see the world as a completely negative place, and I’m sure many others don’t either. Not by making news or something, but by personally delivering a positive message to others, rather than relying on a hasted, mass-produced method of spreading it. Human contact goes a long way, really, it’s how many ideas started, and then once the idea was merely passed around rather than understood and convinced to others, it begins to crumble.





Well this is just one of those personal, random thought-rants that I just felt like putting out there.



Truth is, I had a pretty good discussion with a good friend, and one with a close friend, another with a friend who was being quite negative. And well, I honestly do not care enough to make it a point to talk about the negative one (despite the fact that [s/he] was wishing for such an opportunity). Anyway, all these discussions just made me reconsider the “elderly/parental” advice of being careful of who you hang out with; because the truth is that your “friends” really do impact the way you think, feel, and react.

So even though you might feel bad for speaking your mind and hurting someone, you should really not care about it, because the truth is, they really are able to bring you down. If you believe in yourself enough to realize that this person was just pulling you down, you would understand who is good for you. The person was just not making any sense at all about what they were so “passionate” about, yet they talk about how they wish to make it, yet they do not even go along with its flow; they just do not act like they want it, they just rather act like they want the attention from it or its reputation.

Some people, despite being so aggressive/friendly, petty/deep, annoying/funny can make an honest impression, even by just being fake. It’s just amazing, to find out that what your “mentor” said about feeling what people are is actually so incredibly true. Sure the friend says
“oh I’m excited about it”, but through the “normal” tone, you can sense that they’re merely passion-less, empty people.

It’s annoying just because of the fact that you wasted a small bit of sense on them, only to realize that they are only wasting your time and effort (even passion) just by being themselves. It’s just that you realize that the person automatically started being an “adult, smart, reasonable” person about a dream and an awesome chance, just by being him/herself. Well it’s just absolutely annoying.


I thought my words might not make enough sense for a reader to understand/connect to, so I’ll try and rephrase:

You have been “wanting” to do something for such a long time, you have been wishing to be that something, and you have been talking about how you wish to be that thing. Yet at the time of reality, you have been nothing but a thorn up your own bum. You talk more than a politician, because it makes you feel better about yourself; and only when it gives you an excuse for why you are such an absolute failure will you ever chase it. You know why? Because you did not have the balls to say what you wanted to. Truth is, since you decided on not taking action by speaking your mind, you have misled yourself (and your other self), into believing that you are doing your best.

I find it sad and pathetic. I find it annoying that your other self just let you take the fall for their own weakness instead of standing up and speaking for themselves, and I find it annoying that you just let people use you by being selfish, tantrum-throwing “adults”.

Thankfully I have a few friends that just make me feel happy about everything that goes on, by being themselves, and by reminding me of how they have so positively influenced my personality.


Ah, well it’s just there are so many things that I could say, but it’s just not worth the while, I’m pretty sure that I’ve given people I care about their share of love.

Actually that makes me feel really happy.


Here’s to those friends. I’m sure I have already let you know by now, of how much I appreciate and look up to your patience, ability, performances, motivation, and strengths. Truth is, we are what our surroundings make us out to be.




Oh, yes, I studied architecture… Really…! Totes…!

EDIT: Dear reader, this one post is pretty much just a rant, an immature, one sided rant. Maybe I’ll add a post discussing both the pros and cons of early marriage and choosing opportunities, but this post started as a rant, and that’s what it is.
So I just added this disclaimer to this poorly thought-out piece.


Seriously, am I the only one who sees someone married at 23 and thinks “oh wow, how can you get married if you don’t even know yourself?”

You can argue as much as you can, but I don’t think that anybody can say that people getting married at such an early age won’t regret anything. Seriously, you just graduated architecture, and last time I saw you (a few months ago), you were just discussing an idea a first-year student would consider basic knowledge as if it were a logic-breaking fact. It’s sad that you didn’t leave that spot of yours in university for someone else who was willing to build her/his future on by her/himself for her/himself, rather than for her/his parents.

Seriously, you just studied for 5 years just to make yourself more appealing for your dimwit of a “husband”. Oh and, by the way, people who actually wanted to be architects though I doubt it are actually studying something else because their parents and our “educational system” think they’re not fit to be architects.

You are pathetic, selfish, and weak (for not daring to speak your mind, just as your parents didn’t dare to say that they want you to be an architect for other people rather than yourself).

You give our dreaming and hard-working women a horrible name.


I guess,