“Tell me… Do you ever feel a strange sadness as dusk falls? They say it’s the only time when our world intersects with theirs… The only time we can feel the lingering regrets of spirits who have left our world.That is why loneliness always pervades the hour of twilight…”
– The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess
Something about that quote that just really gets me pondering. I’m not a dweller on spirituality, but I really do love the idea of spirits actually being nothing but energy. Just energy that makes everything run. And just as energy transforms from one thing to the other, it happens with us. You die, your body turns into dust and returns to the earth, and your soul goes back to free-flowing energy. Yeah, I know the logic is very Final Fantasy-like (because it inspires me, and I love it), but I loved that idea ever since I was a child. It’s jut beautiful, humble, natural, unscathed, and not pestered with ego and a commander of all.
These words remind me of that feeling after a day of being assimilated by “normal life”; when you’re completely alone with your thoughts, somehow (yet for no logical reason) with a prevailing sense of gloom, without your loved ones, without your energy ebbing and flowing according to other fields created by the vibes of others. There comes a haunting loneliness on some nights, a quiet time, where any song seems to be deeper than it really is, more atmospheric, that makes you rethink everything you’re doing.
I always wondered if this happens to others, I’m almost sure that it does, but it’s just one of those things that you see/feel on your own and just enjoy (like floaters, for some strange reason). I always thought it was strange. I kind of always ended up not wanting to sleep, listening to “Fisherman’s Horizon” from Final Fantasy VIII, then just thinking for a long time. About nothing, and with no outcome.
It especially happens sometimes when you’re with your friends (or loved ones) and you’re not doing anything at all but sitting together, and you end up talking for a long time, just looking outside somewhere and hanging out. You can’t really recreate the energy of that moment (man, am I full of it or what…), but you feel it too, don’t you?
I honestly don’t know (do I ever) why or what it is I’m trying to say, but I just felt like saying something, really. And somehow, I think you get it.
I was once told: “if you feel something, it’s almost a sure thing that the other person feels the same energy you feel”. I guess now that I think about that piece of advice (don’t ask) we just all feel the energy of a place, and we all move it, and it affects others the same way it affects you, and you it.
It’s just a fun idea thinking of others as energy. That quote really got me going.
Unfortunately, this week’s post is just going to be a filler (unless you like improvised, poorly thought-out posts, then you’ll love this blog). I guess I’ll make it a personal one in a way… yes, it’s because I had nothing prepared, I apologize. So let’s just rant until a god point comes up.
I have been trying to make this blog into a serious one, at least every now and then. So I was for the past while discussing urban ideas, and just tossing my ideas into the bowl and seeing how they taste, but I don’t get any feedback really, not even if I share an article on Facebook. I’m almost sure my content beats at least some of the other blogs copying and pasting articles from other places. Hm… Well it would be nice to be appreciated, though.
I guess people just don’t enjoy reading much anymore? Or maybe they just don’t relate to random thoughts I put out here, I do think that urban planning/design is something that people have come to understand and feel quite a lot these past few years. Well my stubborn head thinks so, but who knows. But hey, I really do enjoy just writing things down here, then maybe in a few years I’ll come back and see what’s happened to me, what changed, and how my ideas are growing, it would be motivating for me at least.
This weekend was utter crap, though, I had a lot of thoughts, but nothing to write about, and nothing to say; I guess you could say “my thoughts were so loud, I couldn’t hear my mouth”. Yeah, I would say that’s pretty accurate, thanks Modest Mouse.
So…. updates eh? Been playing Legend of Zelda: Link to the Past for the first time ever. Go figure. And I gotta say, it has aged quite well, and is not bad at all. I played Minish Cap before and have been wanting to explore the top-down view Zelda games for a while, and Link to the Past was quite a pleasant surprise really. It’s not too easy, it encourages exploration, it’s fun, music is brilliant. So yeah, it’s pretty good. After that I’ll probably play Chrono Trigger since it’s supposed to be one of the best games ever, too, so we’ll see how that goes.
Been sketching a bit on the guitar, and I might upload some audio-only covers/originals depending on how motivated I am. I really wanted to do Songe Le Reveur styled covers (you have got to check this guy out, seriously one of the best musicians I have ever witnessed), but I guess I’ll just start with anything, just to get moving. So audio-only videos won’t be too bad, I think. Or maybe I’ll take a video and match it to the corresponding audio recording. The acoustic guitar does not sound so horrible if I record it on my phone, go figure. The electrics, however….. heh…
We’ll see… that’s the word of the year. We’ll just see what happens on the way, right? Perfectionism is a bad habit, but it’s good to have some standards, so with some self-discipline and initiative, I’ll actually do something I believe. If I manage to make myself work somehow, that is.
Well I think that’s enough for a filler post. Improvising isn’t so bad eh? I actually have an idea to blog about now, but I don’t feel like it. Maybe I’ll get it again next week.
Thanks for the read.
Been way too brain-scattered to do anything on here, really. The Poro piece hasn’t been touched in a while, but I’m starting on a Vivi Ornitier painting (Yep! A water-color painting! :D), just got the base down and all that’s left is the coloring. I’ll go back to the Poro thing afterwards, because I’m pretty excited about using water colors, since I haven’t used them in a while.
Other than that, I’ve been trying to make a logo for a while and it just has not been expressing the subject well enough; it’s just one of those intangible things that you can’t be so visually smart with. But, I do believe a more experienced designer would be able to to it more easily.
That being said, we’ll see how it all goes, as long as I’m not distracted playing something or doing abso-flippin’-lutely nothing, I will be working on these and continuing to look for a job!
What else… Yeah, umm… that’s it! Also, no visuals on the Vivi thing, I’m gonna put a bit of progress pics when I finish. Because it’s cool and stuff.
Messing around with Adobe Illustrator a bit, thought this sort of “abstraction” of Quina from Final Fantasy IX would be nice on a t-shirt (without the background), or maybe with the shirt having one of the colors of the background… Or maybe the face on a black background.
Anyway… Here it is.
… I think you can click on it to enlarge it.